About Me
- DaYo
- In this pic, I'm in suspended animation. I'm a guy who loves to talk to people who have something to say. I always have an opinion, however sometimes I decline to express it, to protect the innocent. I love listening to people's perspectives because it allows me to get a deeper understanding of people and where they come from. I kinda feel like that is my lifelong focus, to figure out where people come from
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sometimes Its Like....I Love me More?
I was thinkin about this statement this morning while I was driving to work. Dam, should I not love myself enough to pursue my dreams, to fulfill my desires, go places and see things that I always wanted to see? And if I put my dreams to the side, does that mean that I don't love myself? Kinda crazy, all through my life, I have been focused on my goals. I wanted to play basketball, although I lost dam near every girl I ever had because of my focus, I don't regret it one second. Hell lookin back, I had fun. Not fun like a water balloon fight on a summer day (yea those were fun too) but I mean fun like, I did everything there was to do. I scored, I played, I was on TV, I experienced fame on a small level and it was fun. Looking at all of the people who were lost along the path, I wouldn't give up one inkling of that experience for anyone of them. Dam, I love me more. I look at what I do now, I'm a teacher at a middle school. Its the most fun at work I have ever had. I mean, I feel fulfilled, I walk on campus and its like, LOVE, I'm talkin about that pure gourmet Sh*t (lol). I mean, I have been doing this for the past 3 years, and I devote myself, everyday, to making those kids better, which makes me better. Not just the ones in my classes but all of them, I try my hardest to show them their potential, that nobody out there is better than them, other people may have more but they are human just like you are. I love the kids, I like what I do, I love standing and talkin to each one about the things i went through, I like how I walk through school and the kids know i show love and they got love for me. But, dam, here comes the quake, in a couple of weeks its time to graduate. Not them, they do it too, but this time its me. I graduate, I move on, and where I'm going who knows if there's any coming back, or should I say going back. Its funny because every couple of days, I get a knock on my classroom door and its always some funny looking deformed kid (lol) standing there saying, "What Up Mr. G?" I usually have to look twice, because the time between 8th and 9th grade the kids grow and change a whole lot. The first time this happened i was like dam, the kids actually came back, but its not like they came back just to say hi, most of them asked me questions and wanted guidance, kinda like..."what do i do next?" Dam thats love, you got these kids who people say aren't ever going to be anything, now they are in school, ready to learn and wanting to learn more. I mean they know I got love for them, they know I'm there when they need an ear to listen. But then, now I gotta go, Dam, I love me more. I have been thinking lately about it, should I just stay and be what I have been. I mean they come back to the school, we created a fraternity type thing, they feel welcomed, or maybe its just my perception of the whole thing...O well, life is about changes and moving on....but my dilemma is...Is loving me more, wrong? and how much should I love me?...Kinda deep, I'd like to hear what u guys have to say about it
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Loving you more isnt a bad thing as long as it is something that is not carried over into other areas of your life..such as love life,friendships, family life, marriage, etc etc....you sound very driven and to a point you do need to love yourself more. But where does it all stop? Have you asked yourself when loving yourself more is going to be enough?? When do you stop loving yourself more is the question. To get ahead is wonderful and its such a fulfillment for some but at what point is one ready to love someone else more? When is it time to stop loving yourself more and think about anothers feelings? You stated that you have given up girls in the past for the experiences you wanted, so when do you come to a point where you can finally stop giving up other people and have both? Just like with the kids you are debating on walking away from..when do you finally come to a point in your life where you realize you dont have to give up one thing to have another. Just remember loving you more is not a bad quality when put to use in the right situation (professional life, career life) but its not the best quality to have when being put to use in other areas of your life. So when is loving you more enough? My answer is- when you are ready to love someone or something else more..thats when its enough...you have to come to the realization that loving yourself more will fulfill some ares of your life..but leave you empty in others....hope this helps!
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