My Moment of Truth??!!!???!!??

Ok, my whole life I always believed that there was gonna be a defining moment that would determine who i would be as a man. With that in mind I have always looked at everything as a learning experience that would prepare me for that moment. The way i have always seen it, that moment would come and everything after that would be done in a different light, i mean everything completely different. So now comes my test to get my degree, I been studying like crazy, like never before, i mean hours and hours for consecutive days. I never thought I had it in me. But, I psyched myself up to think/believe that this test was my moment of truth. I write myself notes that say, "if u Fail....death follows."
Yea sounds kinda crazy...but i'm taking this thing real seriously, and the closer i get to the test date, the more i realize that this may not be the moment of truth that i have been preparing my whole life for. The way saw it, my future wouldnt be seen until that moment happened, but i have soo much stuff going on leading up to and trailing far after the day of this test. So it got me thinking, am i taking this too seriously, a couple of people have told me that...i didnt listen of course. But I look at what im doing, I teach everyday, I read the books for my practicum and counsel people for practice, i'm preparing to go to Korea, i'm setting up this other trip in april, im thinkin about going to USC to get my doctorate...just to name a few. The problem is that my vision of my moment of truth is a situation that has no vision of life past that moment because the future depends on what i do in that situation...and i can see soo far after this moment, that it cant be the one that defines my truth. So now, i mean like just in the past 2 days, the thoughts of, "this is just another bump in the road that im gonna roll over and keep pressing on to my next desire" are becoming stronger and stronger. Not to say that i'm gonna crack and have some sort of meltdown..because thats not an option, but im thinking dam..am i making a bigger deal about this test than i really need to. I mean I look back on the days when i used to play basketball (i refer to those days because they set the stage for my work ethic) I can remember working my ass off in the summers to get ready for the next season. Although it never crossed my mind that the opening game of a season would ever be a moment of truth, it was still something I would work and prepare for and see as something big. So, now im kinda looking at this test as not a moment of truth but more like the first game of the season after i worked my ass off all summer. I mean its big... and something I should take seriously but, it wont define me as a human being.....will it???...ehh who knows....I kno what i have to do...just like i did when i stepped on the court....WIN!!!!! and then tomorrow will come and all of the things that i have planned for my future will be here before i know it....well.... the lights are dimming.....the crowd is getting loud....and they are calling the names....dam here comes mine.......hope u cheer..because all of u will get a show......ill write again...but i gotta handle this first.....